THOMSON, cassandra abigail

[CASSANDRA ABIGAIL THOMSON]

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CASSANDRA ABIGAIL THOMSON
" I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough"


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OKAY, SO GIVE US THE BASICS !

"ER, HELLO THERE. I AM CASSANDRA ABIGAIL THOMSON BUT YOU CAN JUST CALL ME CASSIE, CASS, or just CASSANDRA!. I HAVE BEEN WREAKING HAVOC FOR SIXTEEN YEARS AND I DON'T REALLY PLAN ON STOPPING SOON. I GRACED THIS WORLD WITH MY PRESENCE ON April 9th 1959 . I BRANDISH A MAHOGANY, 10 ½ INCH, UNICORN TAIL HAIR CORE WAND, I KNOW YOU ARE JEALOUS. I AM IN THE HOUSE OF GRYFFINDOR, SIXTH YEAR, AND DAMN PROUD. I WAS BORN WITH MUGGLE BLOOD, NOT THAT IT REALLY MATTERS. SO YEAH, ARE WE DONE?"

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SORRY, NOT QUITE. SO WHAT ARE AND AREN'T YOU INTO ?

"Girls. Heh, just kidding. I mean, I’m not kidding, but that wasn’t the answer you were looking for. I really do love magic. I love the idea that nothing is impossible, that there are spells for anything and everything, that new potions could be discovered every day, that I had something special, that I could be part of something unique. I love that. I live for that.

I like jewelry. Necklaces, earrings, bracelets, anything to spice up my outfit for the day. I love dressing up. And dancing. I’m often found skipping down halls or spinning in circles, or something random like that. I hate sitting still, I need to be doing something all of the time. I love to sing. Sing, and hum, and whistle, and tap out beats… I’m often seen using my wand as a drumstick, which isn’t the safest idea, I’m sure. But yeah. I love music, and rhythm, and dancing around the room like a spaz, and it’s great. I’m not saying I’m good at it or anything, but I love it, and that’s all that matters.

I hate being tired. I really, really dislike being tired. I’m so unproductive when I get drowsy, which seems to happen most when I oversleep rather than when I undersleep, so I sleep less these days. I hate being judged. I know it happens all of the time, for my background or lifestyle choices or whatever, but… I feel like I’m a good person. You know? I try hard to be nice to everyone, I do my schoolwork, I’m a good friend, so what if I make some unconventional lifestyle choices? Or who cares about my family’s bloodline? Shouldn’t it just be who I am inside that matters? I dislike people who judge you before they meet you, too. Like, not all Slytherins are terrible people, and I refuse to think they are until I’ve met them and they give me a reason to dislike them. It only seems fair."

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HOW ER... INTERESTING. EVER LOOKED INTO THE MIRROR OF ERISED ?

"I haven’t. I don’t even know what that is. Give me a second to look it up... Oh, here we are. Ah! That sounds like a fun antique, doesn’t it? I suppose if I looked into it, I would see myself surrounded by people who accept me for who I am. People who love me for me, no matter who that may end up being. I don’t know if it’d be my family and friends who don’t accept me now, but hopefully will grow to in the future, or if it would be new friends and future family who will accept me now, no matter what my past. But it would definitely just be me being able to be myself, either way. Which, I mean, I do anyway, but it would be nice to have people accept me for it, right?"

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WHAT MAKES YOU SHAKE IN YOUR BOOTS ?

"I am absolutely terrified of the idea of never belonging anywhere after I decided to come to Hogwarts. My family hates me because I decided to learn magic, and a lot of the magical community looks down on muggle-borns for some reason. It’s a scary thought to realize that once I leave Hogwarts I may never really belong anywhere ever again. My family will shun me, I’ll never really belong to the real wizarding world, either. I’m going to stop thinking about it now, if that’s alright with you.

Other than that big one, not a lot of things really scare me. I guess death scares me a little. People I love dying, or getting hurt… me as well, though hopefully later rather than sooner. The fact that there are ghosts here is a comfort, though. At least there’s *something* out there, for some people. The idea of death being the end of it all, and then just blackness, isn’t something I’d like to consider. It’s incentive to live your life better, of course, but I’d still like to hope there is something more.

Aaaaaaannnnddd… uhmmm… well, this is going to sound sort of silly, but the dark. I mean, not just the dark. I don’t like not knowing what’s around me, not being able to see things. I get jittery when I’m alone somewhere at night, and there isn’t a light on. I’ll usually keep my wand about me to use lumos, which helps. But yeah, alone in the dark sort of freaks me out sometimes. Don’t laugh!”

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EVEN YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME GOOD QUALITIES, RIGHT ?

"I’m not afraid to be myself. I’m honest about what I want, and who I am, and what you see is what you get. I rarely lie, and when I do it’s never about anything big. I don’t mind if people don’t like me because not everyone is going to love everyone else, that’s just a sad fact of life I’ve come to terms with. The best I can do is try to accept everyone else for who they are, and hope they reciprocate.

I’d like to say that I’m a brave person. I stood my ground about going to Hogwarts, even though it caused my family to treat me like an outcast. And I’ve stood my ground about being a capable witch to purebloods who try to act like they’re better than me. I’m not afraid to confront people, though I’m not confrontational all of the time. I don’t go seeking fights or anything like that. I just don’t like to give up or back down when I think I’m right.

I’m very intense, but in a good way. When I like something, I really like it. When I’m into a book, I’m really into it. When I like someone, it is usually a rather intense experience for me. I’m a passionate person, and I love that about myself. Music, literature, knowledge, having fun and sharing experiences and all of the extremes that go along with life. After all, what good is life without all of the intense experiences that go along with it? It isn’t obsessive, because that would be a terrible quality, obviously. There is a HUGE difference! Haha. I’m not crazy, I swear."

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AND IT'S QUITE OBVIOUS YOU HAVE YOUR BAD, HUH ?

"Of course I have my weaknesses. Who doesn’t? It’s the flaws in a person that give them character, that make them who they are. Nobody’s perfect, least of all me. Sometimes I will distance myself from people if I feel like I’m going to get hurt. I will distance myself from situations, too, if I think it’ll end poorly for me.

Sometimes I can be a little reckless in my adventurous nature. I’m always up for a challenge, but sometimes I get hurt in the process. Sometimes I put myself into… risky scenarios, perhaps? I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t help it! I love the thrill of sneaking into a restricted area, or trying a new stunt I may not have perfected yet on my broom, or trying to climb the highest tree in the forest. Sometimes I just don’t know my own boundaries, my limitations.

Sometimes when I speak my mind it comes across as being arrogant. Like, if I think something could be done better, or if someone made a mistake, I’ll point it out. I don’t mean to put them down, I figure if they know there was a better way, then the next time they can do it better! It always comes across as arrogance, though, which is pretty terrible, and yet I never seem to realize I’ve said something like that until it’s too late to stop myself or take it back. I don’t know why people have such an issue with being wrong, though. If I was doing something wrong, I’d want someone to let me know! I suppose not everyone thinks like me, though, now do they?!"

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LET'S GET DIRTY. WHAT TURNS YOU ON ?

"Girls… oh, wait, it actually belongs here this time! I guess that’s as good a place as any to start. As far as I’m aware, I’m a lesbian. I’ve only ever fallen for two people in my life, and both had been girls. I’m not saying that I haven’t found the occasional guy good looking, and I’m open to the idea that one day a guy may come along and sweep me off my feet, make me weak in the knees, etc, etc. But it hasn’t happened yet. But I don’t look at gender as much as I do personality. I feel like I should fall for the person, you know, and not their private parts. I looked it up once, there’s a term for it.. omnisexual, or something like that. But I don’t like labels, either, so whatever.

Like I said, personality is by far the biggest turn on for me. Someone with a sense of adventure, someone who can make me laugh, someone who isn’t afraid to let loose and have fun and just be themselves. A great personality will always draw me in. I’m attracted to people for how they act, and not what they look like. Looking good is a plus, but I’ve crushed on some pretty unattractive people before. I guess if I had to pick one physical aspect it’d be a smile. The right smile can just melt me, or put me at ease. It’s great.

As far as turn-offs, I dislike shallow people. I don’t like superficial. And those holier-than-thou lecturers, don’t get me started. Any of that and I’m gone. If you can’t laugh at yourself sometimes, same deal. I really dislike surrounding myself with negativity. And people who just rain on my parade by pointing out that something is wrong, or against the rules, or not safe, or… bleh. Just live a little! Putting others down is another turn-off. You may think you’re god’s gift to the earth, but the second you belittle someone else I’ll have lost all respect for you."

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DO YOU LOVE YOUR FAMILY ?

"I don’t really talk about my family much if I can help it. It isn’t that I hate them, I could never hate them. That’s the problem. It’d be so much easier for me to move on if I just hated them… but I don’t. I can’t. They’re ashamed of me. Embarrassed, even! Magic is the work of the devil to my family, and by taking this path in my life I essentially turned my back on them and all of the beliefs they raised me on. And every time my mother and father look at me like I’m a leper, shy from my touch like magic is some contagious disease, I just-- *sniff* I’m sorry. It’s just really upsetting for me to think of home sometimes.

My brother and sister aren’t as bad. They both just found out that I’m a witch, actually. They’re 13 now, fraternal twins, and my parents wouldn’t let them find until they were old enough to not go running around telling everybody where I really go every school year. They think it’s cool, but since they have to live at home and they don’t have any magi they pretend to look down on me too, just to make my parents happy. I don’t blame them, of course. How could I? I wouldn’t want mom and dad turning on them as well just for sticking up for me!

My parent’s names are Abigail and Gabriel, and my siblings are Maria and Daniel, by the way. Other than the four of them, I just have the usual assortment of aunts and uncles, cousins… all of my grandparents have passed away now, my grandmother being the last to go. I miss her the most. I’m not too close with anyone in my family, especially since I’m away most of the year at school now. We all meet up for major holidays, but that’s pretty much it. "

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WHERE YA FROM, BY THE WAY ?

"Obviously, I’m from a muggle town. I live in Roehampton only a few miles from the Thames and only two miles from Wimbledon. There are plenty of attractions around, so there’s never a lack of things to do! We’re not rich, but we’re not poor, either. Our house is just big enough to fit the five of us, especially now that I’m gone most of the year. We don’t have a lot of land, but there are some parks nearby, so that more than makes up for it!

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THE DEMENTORS ARE HERE. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ?

"Why do you have to bring these things up again? The worst memory I have would have to be not being home when my grandmother died. We were always really close, she’d always visit us or we’d go to visit her, several times a week since we lived close by. All the family gatherings were at her house, she came to all of our school events, choir shows, everything.

Anyway, when I came to Hogwarts I only got to see her a few times over the summer months. I felt bad for not being around. Of course, she didn’t know where I was. My whole family is very Christian, especially my grandmother. It would’ve killed her to know what I was, she never would’ve spoken to me again! But that’s off topic again. My 2nd year she died. November 4th. And I didn’t even know until Christmas. You see, my family is very against all of this magic, and refuses to use owls. No matter how many I used to send them, they’d never return a single one. So when she died no one even tried to contact me. I found out when I came home for break, which was supposed to be Christmas at Grandmother’s house, like always. I never got to say goodbye, and I feel terrible for not being around those last two years. A part of me will never forgive myself for leaving. I wasn’t there, and I feel like if she knew the reason I had left, she would’ve hated me for it.

That was the last time I ever came home for a school break that wasn’t the mandatory summer one.”

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BETTER GET UP A PATRONUS. WHAT ARE YOU REMEMBERING ?

"I’m sure this is going to sound cheesy, but my best memory is when I performed my first spell. Yep, that is hands-down the best memory I have. I mean, think about it. There I was, an eleven year old girl who had basically earned the distrust and loathing of her family by going off to practice magic. My family wouldn’t acknowledge my decision. I had no friends. I was in a strange place surrounded by strangers. And what if I had made the wrong decision? But then I had my first class, and it was Charms. We were taught the basic movement of the Lumos spell, and asked to try it. And while many of the purebloods faltered through jerky motions, I waved my wand and said the incantation and viola! Light. It glowed almost pink at the tip of my wand, but it was there. And in that moment everything felt right. I knew I had made the right choice, that I belonged here, at Hogwarts. That moment of clarity, that ease of all of my doubts and worries, is still the best memory I have. Though I’m not opposed to something even better coming along sometime soon!"

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HI, I AM ERICA AND I AM TWENTY YEARS OLD.
I HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR SO MANY YEARS (at least 10, I think I figured out before?) AND I'M NOT
QUITTING ANYTIME SOON. WELL, I GUESS I NEED TO SHOW YOU I'M THE SHIT,
SO HERE IT GOES.
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YOU HAVE SEEN SO MANY OF THESE FROM ME OVER THE YEARS! :-p (Madison’s has one, I do believe)

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[• BEKI]

accepted.

well, this is amazing as always, erica.
i'm constantly impressed with the apps
you put out and this one is not different!
you definitely surprised me with the
lesbian thing, so kudos on that. and i
really like all that family baggage she
carries around, and the fact that she can
be such an awesome person despite it. ♥