MADLEY, allison winifred

[ALLISON WINIFRED MADLEY]

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ALLISON WINIFRED MADLEY
" I have met so many people, we've exchanged so many words
We've said it all and we've said nothing but it's changed us "


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OKAY, SO GIVE US THE BASICS !

"ER, HELLO THERE. I AM ALLISON WINIFRED MADLEY BUT YOU CAN JUST CALL ME NICKNAME. I HAVE BEEN WREAKING HAVOC FOR FOURTEEN YEARS AND I DON'T REALLY PLAN ON STOPPING SOON. I GRACED THIS WORLD WITH MY PRESENCE ON JUNE 5TH 1961. I BRANDISH A 13 INCH, ROSEWOOD WITH RUNESPOOR FANG CORE WAND, I KNOW YOU ARE JEALOUS. I AM IN THE HOUSE OF SLYTHERIN, FOURTH YEAR, AND DAMN PROUD. I WAS BORN WITH PURE BLOOD, NOT THAT IT REALLY MATTERS. SO YEAH, ARE WE DONE?"

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SORRY, NOT QUITE. SO WHAT ARE AND AREN'T YOU INTO ?

"I’m very into learning new things. Having new experiences. Trying new spells, breaking away from the norm and going my own way. I guess the Sorting Hat knew that when it put me into Slytherin, despite my long family history of Hufflepuffs. I just recently started reading some books about the Dark Arts. I’m very into them now, it’s almost become an obsession over this past summer. I mean, imagine, learning something that most people know absolutely nothing about, all because they’re afraid. The very idea is preposterous. I would never limit myself like that, after all, if I want to be the best I’m going to have to know as much as I possibly can about as much as I possibly can. ESPECIALLY things that are ‘forbidden’. I now possess knowledge – though admittedly not very much yet - that many adults don’t know, all out of limitation due to fear. Hah!

I like to smile. I like to have things to smile about. I do enjoy herbology, taking care of plants is one of the things I have excelled at the most since coming to Hogwarts. I even keep a few around my bed in my dorm, and I was debating asking Professor Sprout if I would be able to keep a few personal plants in one of the greenhouses. We’ll see about that, though. When I want to do something, I like to be good at it. I play to win. I love Quidditch, and my small frame makes me almost perfect for the spot of Seeker. I used to like just getting by, not getting in anyone’s way, and keeping to myself. Not anymore. Now I realize that I need to branch out, make friends, be personable, and show the confidence I’ve been hiding inside. What better way to do that than through Quidditch!?

I don’t like people talking down on me. They don’t know me at all! They have no idea what I’m thinking, what I’m going through, or what I’m capable of. I may have been quiet and shy before, I may have been a little insecure, but that’s all going to change. I’m not unworthy, I was put in Slytherin for a reason. I just didn’t see it until now, that’s all. I also hate being beaten. Since I’ve been a little on the quiet side, I’ve had to prove myself in other ways so that other people wouldn’t step all over me like a dirty welcome mat. I’m good at school, at Quidditch, and I’m going to be Prefect next year, just wait.

But that’s off-topic. There are plenty of things I dislike. Do you want more meaningful things, or just surface small-talk? I dislike muggle studies. Why would I want to learn about inferior advancements? Why would I care how a car works if I can apparate, or use floo powder? And whichever people condone the use of muggle things in the magical world. I don’t like them either, they’re so impractical. Look at all of the talents, all of the advantages we have been given! Why would you want to turn away from that, even just for a second? Little things I dislike are bubble gum, people who chew their nails, those people who keep going on and on about equality and everyone getting along and peace, and probably most of all naiveté. If you can’t see the truth in life, then what good are you? Unrealistic ideals are even worse than having no ideals.”

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HOW ER... INTERESTING. EVER LOOKED INTO THE MIRROR OF ERISED ?

"Up until now things have been very cloudy. I was uncertain about my path, being the only Slytherin in my family line, despite our pureblood heritage. I was raised on the values of giving everyone a chance, and was always told that good must prevail and people who study the Dark Arts are evil. Those family values were bred into me, and it’s taken an awful lot of work for them to start to fade over the past few years of school. But now the future is starting to clear up for me. The more I read about the Dark Arts, the more I realize how powerful they are and just what the future may hold for me if I was willing to believe that I had no limitations, the clearer and brighter my future becomes.

I can easily see myself rising above my peers. I can see myself in a leadership position, with a title, with responsibilities, with people relying on me to be the best at what I do for everyone to succeed. I see greatness, and I know I can achieve it. Maybe not the greatness I was raised wanting, but an honor all the same. I’m still fuzzy on the details, but I know that things are going to unravel in just the right way for me to understand it soon enough. I just have to have patience.”

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WHAT MAKES YOU SHAKE IN YOUR BOOTS ?

"I’m afraid of being abandoned. My family is weary of me because I’m a Slytherin, and they’re afraid that I’m going to turn evil. The other Slytherins seem weary of me because up until now I’ve been unsure of myself, and a little shy. I guess I’m afraid of neither group accepting me, and being stuck alone in some awkward middle ground with no one to talk to and nowhere to go.

I’m afraid of losing my magic. I’ve put so much time and effort into learning this magic, and the idea of it all being for nothing terrifies me. If they ever took my wand I would simply have to steal another one and hope that it worked decently, because I could never live without magic to defend myself, or those I care about, or just the ease of using it to perform even the simplest of tasks. Ugh, I can’t imagine having to pack or clean by hand, with a rag and dirty water… maybe I’m a little spoiled, but I don’t really think so because it isn’t my fault I was born into a pureblood family. Why do things you don’t have to?!

I’m afraid of people thinking I’m weak. It’s one of the reasons I strive so hard to be the best at everything I do – so that when people look upon me they see a girl who can handle herself, a girl who is capable. If people were to take pity on me, as if I was some sort of charity case, I think I’d just die of embarrassment. I don’t want to be a joke to anybody.”

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EVEN YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME GOOD QUALITIES, RIGHT ?

"I’m coming into my strengths right now, so maybe some of these aren’t quite ‘strong’ yet but I know that they’re going to be soon enough and I’m confident enough to mention them here. I’m ambitious. If I have a goal in mind then I’m going to reach it, it’s just a matter of how long it takes me to do so. I’m pretty sure that even if one of my goals was unreachable I would try until the day I died. This carries over into a fairly strong work ethic for things like school, which is helpful in maintaining my position near the top of my class. And it will carry over if I make the Quidditch team this year as well. I’m not someone to settle for mediocrity.

I can thrive in solitude, or with others. I think that is a great quality to have because I’m covered no matter what situation presents itself to me. If I’m in a group I usually know how to twist words around until everyone agrees on one idea – usually mine – and it’s that ability to work with others that will allow me to succeed in the real world. Because whether I like it or not, no one can really make anything of themselves 100% on their own, you need to turn to others more often than not. If I am alone, though, I’m resourceful and cunning enough to create a solution to many problems on my own.

I’m not a terrible person. I don’t hate everyone, nor do I wish for everyone other than me to fail. I guess the absence of those bad qualities count as a good quality, right? I mean, I’ll help others if they need it, and sure, I’ll step on some toes to get to the top, but once I’m there I don’t feel the need to put others down even more, just for the fun of it. And I really am quite easy to get along with if you’re willing to get to know me. If you’re not a complete moron and you’re not up against me in anything, I’m sure we could come to an understanding, at least."

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AND IT'S QUITE OBVIOUS YOU HAVE YOUR BAD, HUH ?

"Everyone has their view on what is good or bad. I feel like any quality I have that has made me who I am can’t possibly be bad, just a different part of me. But I guess I could mention a few things that most people would consider… not good. One of those would probably be how emotionless I can be at times. If I feel like I’m going to get hurt, or if I’m feeling particularly emotional, I can make myself feel nothing. I’ll get cold and distant, more of a protection mechanism than anything else.

I do think I’m better than people at times, and I’m not afraid to admit it. I’ve worked hard to get where I am and be who I’ve become, and I’m proud of that. And I will break rules if they’re standing in the way of something I want to do. I mean, I know which rules are put there for my own good and which are stupid and can be broken, or at least bent. I won’t hesitate to do what I have to.

I can be pretty extreme at times. There are days I seem like a recluse, and days I’ll say hello to everybody I see. It all depends on my mood when I wake up in the morning. That extra minute or two of sleep could make all the difference. And sometimes the smallest of things can make me really angry. I’ll try not to show it, but sometimes I can’t help but explode a little, figuratively of course."

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LET'S GET DIRTY. WHAT TURNS YOU ON ?

"Personality wise? Confidence. Someone who can walk into the room and have all eyes on them, just because they can carry themselves in a manner that attracts people to them. There is nothing hotter than confidence, though a nice body doesn’t hurt. Physically? I mean, I’m just starting to notice these things, but I do like a guy who is in shape. And eyes… oh, don’t get me started on a good pair of eyes. It’s sad, since you can’t really help what sort of eyes you have, but some people just have eyes that you can’t look away from. I do look up to a lot of the people in my house, but thus far I’ve admired them from afar. I do seem to have crushes on people I admire, though, which are often on 5th, 6th, even 7th years! Completely unrealistic, but it happens none the less."

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DO YOU LOVE YOUR FAMILY ?

"I don’t hate my family. Does that count? Growing up they were really supportive of me, and we did have a bit of money, so I never wanted for anything. It was a good childhood. But they just don’t understand sometimes. They were pretty upset when I got sorted into Slytherin. I didn’t really get it at first either, since my family had a long line of Hufflepuffs, with a few Gryffindors and Ravenclaws spattered in there, but I am the first Slytherin EVER, in the history of both sides of my family. I’m pretty sure some of my relatives stopped associating with us because of it, actually. I can’t prove it, but they know who they are.

ANYWAY, yeah. My siblings are naieve. It’s cute sometimes, but they just don’t understand how tough the world can be. They don’t get that if you’re not on top, then you’re going to fall to the wayside. And my parents are just as naieve. My mum, god bless her, is a nurse at St. Mungo’s, and my dad is a doctor there as well. Healers. Always trying so hard to help those who couldn’t help themselves, trying to find the best in every situation. Sometimes it just gets old. There is so much more out there, but my family seems content to stay static forever. It’s frustrating."

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WHERE YA FROM, BY THE WAY ?

" Isle of Wight – it’s a nice little English island just off the south coast of the mainland, in the English channel. It’s a big holiday spot, but that’s alright. It’s really nice there. Sometimes I miss it. ”

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THE DEMENTORS ARE HERE. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ?

"I grew up trying to please my parents, and do my best for them. One night after coming home from my first year of school, I overheard them arguing. About me. They were yelling at some of my relatives, and they said that they didn’t raise a Slytherin. They were ashamed of me, they were upset and embarrassed and disappointed. The feelings of hate and disappointment and abandonment that I felt that night, listening to them talk about me like I was a plague or a curse, will forever be my worst memory. Even though I know they’re wrong, it doesn’t change what happened that night, back when my only goal was to make them happy still. Sitting there and listening to the two people in the world who were supposed to love me no matter what talking about where they went wrong and why I was evil… it’s a feeling I would never voluntarily re-live."

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BETTER GET UP A PATRONUS. WHAT ARE YOU REMEMBERING ?

"The first time I snuck into the forbidden section of the library. It was only in my first year, and I had gone on a dare. All of that knowledge, trying to be kept away from prying minds. All of that secret information, sitting there, available for me to read. I just walked up and down the rows for a little while, running my fingers up and down the spines of the books. Reading titles. Realizing how much I really didn’t know about everything, and how much I wanted to learn. It was the feeling of unlimited possibilities that I enjoyed the most."

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HI, I AM ERICA AND I AM TWENTY YEARS OLD.
I HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR AT LEAST TEN YEARS NOW AND I'M NOT
QUITTING ANYTIME SOON. WELL, I GUESS I NEED TO SHOW YOU I'M THE SHIT,
SO HERE IT GOES.
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SEE PREVIOUS APPLICATION (MADISON)

^{made by VERA SAY WHA ?! of caution 2.0!}

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((OOC- Is that an alright application? I wanted her to have spent the past few years sort of laying low, figuring out why all of the Hufflepuff values her family had taught her over the years didn’t apply to her. So she’s trying to shake off the good girl, stay out of the way sort of views and be a true Slytherin by showing the ambition and slight edginess and all… but since she’s just starting to do that, her thoughts and opinions come across as a little bipolar at times. I just wanted to make sure everything made at least a little sense! This is going to be a fun character for me, I can tell already!))

[• BEKI]

accepted.

You finally got it done! :] Concerning your
OOC comment: yes, this application is more
than all right! It was well-written, and all
the character nuances you threw in there
work together perfectly, so no worries. She
seems like an atypical Slytherin, but still
Slytherin through and through. Well done.